Then we headed to Bakka (bakkaphoenix, where we heard Elizabeth Bear (matociquala) read a really fun story. I picked up Whiskey & Water, Undertow, and The Chains That You Refuse. While signing my books, E. Bear tried to make a bit of smalltalk with me, but I'm too shy to say much of anything to someone I admire. Probably just as well, because by the time she was done with the three books, there was a big line-up behind me.
One thing I couldn't help wondering again - when authors and editors "friend" me back on LJ, are they actually reading what I have to say? Are they keeping an eye on what fans might be saying about their publications? Or are they trying to make fans feel good? Every time someone in the industry "friends" me, I get super-excited for a few minutes - but shortly after, I doubt that the person is really reading my posts. After all, if matociquala read all the posts of the 1500+ people on her friends list, she wouldn't have time to write. But I'm filled with enough self-doubt that I wonder why even those with a smaller friends list would want to read my posts.
Although now I feel more comfortable blogging, it took me a long time before I even started this first blog. I still sometimes find it hard to believe that anyone but my friends would want to read about my personal experiences.